I think one of the things about narcissism, and why it’s so hard as the survivor, is the knowledge that we’re all human and humans have flaws. — In my experience with my ex, his betrayals cut even deeper because somehow, and for some reason, in my eyes he didn’t have that kind of flaw in him — the macdaddy flaw of betrayal. …

This morning I read a passage in The State of Affairs by Esther Perel about a powerful part of infidelity called “Trauma Denial.” Perel writes “It is actually a sophisticated self-protective mechanism known as trauma denial- a type of self-delusion that we employ when too much is at stake and…

I recently took the Enneagram test after much fan fare from my Aunt and Boss’ boss. The results came back that I’m an Ennea 4 with an SO Instinct. What does that mean? Well a number 4 is an Intense Creative and an SO is a Social instinct. My Enneagram…

I’ve been in a low-lit place. I wouldn’t say it was pitch black dark, but it was definitely on the very low side of low-lit. I could see enough to navigate myself, at a snail’s pace. I suppose another tell-tale sign I am depressed is when my world becomes about…

I know inspiration as an inhale, an intake of life, of aliveness, of curiosity… — I know inspiration as an inhale, an intake of life, of aliveness, of curiosity. I tend to get inspired in the morning. I go for a walk before work, grab some coffee at a local shop, and walk through the neighborhood traversing hills. Typically the caffeine hits my system as…

I’m sitting here, in my cozy chair watching the rain come down. It’s fall, the leaves are intense shades of yellow, orange, and red. I know that with this rain, many of those leaves will fall to the street, too heavily weighed upon by the rain. Day light savings time…

Lately, my boyfriend has been asking for a commitment. Not marriage, not babies, just a commitment for the future. He playfully (and sometimes not so playfully) says “figure out your life!” I then proceed to tell him all my learnings as I’ve contemplated what commitment means to me. That doesn’t…

What if I can never get rid of the anxiety? Not that it’s hopeless to rid myself of it, but like right now, this is how mind has anxiety. This is what’s so. Well, if that’s the case, I can stop trying so hard. Stop trying to meditate more. Stop…

Today I sit contemplating work. Work has been stressful. It seems that every issue that arises sets off my internal alarm system. Raising the flag that something is wrong, very wrong. It’s like I want work to be, and think work should be, smooth sailing. …